Becoming Andrea

 

A couple of years ago, before the lockdown here in the UK, I was going out on a regular basis to a well known Trans friendly club, we always had a great time but I wanted more, I wanted to move away from the T-Girl / trans scene more toward mainstream venues. Don't get me wrong there is nothing wrong with the T-girl scene, but I felt it wasn't really for me. Then the pandemic struck and we couldn't go out anyway, after the first lockdown there was a few months of reprieve before we were plunged back into another lockdown. During that short 'window' we managed to get out three times, as the clubs were shut we used mainstream bars and restaurants and had a brilliant time. It opened my eyes to what was possible out in the 'real' world. After the second lockdown we managed to get out again visiting a restaurant we had not been to for nine months. We were greeted like long lost friends, the reception we had demonstrated to me that the 'real world' was where I needed to be, not the T-Girl scene. 

Recent months, for various reasons have not given me the opportunity to venture out, but even when one chance did become available as it was to a Trans club, I declined. During this time I have re-evaluated where I am and where I want to be. I don't want to be in a club with a lot of people, nice though they are, many of which are trying to be something they are not. I want to be my true authentic self, I want to be Andrea. I talked about it to two lovely female friends and they both offered me support and encouragement. One said:

 "You now know what you want to be and it's one of the girls and not the trans clubs. Sitting in jeans and that lovely jacket sipping coffee and chatting to your best girlfriend, what could be better than that? Thats the real Andrea and what will make you happy" 

She is completely right, it is what I want to be and already I am feeling happier for it, I am not changing, I have understood and accepted the person I really am and now letting her blossom. I have changed over recent months, not dramatically, but there has been a shift in me personally. As a result I am more confident and much happier in myself. Others have commentated that in my photos I present a much more confident and happy woman than ever before. 

So my advice for anyone reading this would be, think hard about what you really want, don't get carried along with the crowd, follow your own path, be your true authentic self and enjoy life...........