Crossdressers Outlook

As a crossdresser I look at women differently to other men, that is to say when I see an attractive woman walking along the street I don't adopt a typical male response. Firstly I would like to say I am attracted to women, I do not find men remotely attractive, in fact I find it hard to see what anybody could find attractive in a lot of men, but that's probably just me! 

This subject came into my mind while traveling during work (in male mode) with a co-worker, as we were driving along in the morning traffic, my male companion spotted a young woman probably in her late twenties walking along the street toward the station, "thats really class man" he said pointing her out to me. She was about five foot six or so, had shoulder length straight blond hair, short skirt and heels, I doubt if my friend noticed anything else about her, his male instinct had received enough information for him to make his comment. The fact he referred to her as 'that', said enough about his male attitude toward this lady, although it has to be said it was better than some of the comments I have heard used in similar situations. I felt like shouting at him "she is a person not an object" but I know it wouldn't get anywhere because he would not understand what I was really saying.

Myself as a crossdresser in stealth mode saw this woman completely differently, yes she was attractive and she stood out from the crowd but I saw more, her nicely fitted black jacket, the red top she was wearing, the dark grey skirt that fluttered as she walked but never looked out of place, the dark grey tights and the dark red shoes with four and a half inch heels, none of these details would have been noticed by my companion. I was also impressed with the way she negotiated an uneven pavement, the ease with which she moved, never putting a foot wrong walking confidently and with purpose. Believe me I know how hard that is! but she did it with such grace and elegance. 

None of these details would have been noticed by most men, they only tend to look at the overall picture, not the details, but crossdressers are not most men, we see and feel things differently, we notice the details we appreciate the work that goes into getting ready for the day, we love the effort made to chose the outfit and we adore the high heel shoes!

The point here is crossdressers are different, any Cis-woman (or man for that matter) reading this may say "well thats obvious". It is obvious in the way we like to present ourselves but what is not so obvious (at least as far as I, and many of the crossdressers I have met are concerned) is that we see 'life' differently. I firmly believe we are special people with a special place in this world, we see life from a much wider view than either a male or female would. Since accepting my 'whole self' I have become more tolerant, more accepting of others with a different life style, more willing to see 'different' as a positive thing.   I no longer 'fear what I don't understand' as many in this world do, and I for one think that has to be a positive thing..........